1. I know it isn't something you can control, but it still sucks that I'll never be able to do the same things that you do. It makes me feel like I'm missing out.

2. I wish I made you laugh like other people make you laugh.

3. I worry about what you're going to do when I'm gone. I stress out about it more than I should. 

4. One of my biggest regrets will always be meeting you, not because you messed up some of my life but because I created a lifelong set of problems for you that you didn't deserve. I should have known better too. I'm sorry.

5. I hope college never tears us apart. You are the best friend I've ever had, and I am overwhelmingly grateful for the opportunity to know you at all. I want my children to call you "Aunt" even though we aren't related. You mean so much to me, and I hope nothing changes that.

6. You were never as bad as I made you out to be. Yes, you were irrational and a little bit crazy, but you did it out of unconditional love. I'm sorry I made you into a monster, especially when I was younger.

7. I wish you and I could be closer than I feel like you are to me sometimes. Even after all these years, I still wish we were the same when it came to trust. I always have to remind myself that we just approach things differently.

8. Even though I am genuinely excited for you and know you're capable, I worry about your taking on these new challenges because I worry that they're going to make you feel trapped and unhappy.

9. I know all I'd have to do to spend time with you is give you a call, but I still miss you like you're never in touch. 

10. I hope the flawed system does not destroy you.